I found myself getting very upset with God this week.
I’m usually a strong believer in “everything happens for a reason,” but sometimes, I just don’t understand what that reason is. And no matter how much I plead and beg with Him to help me understand, I don’t. And who knows if I ever will.
And honestly, sometimes it doesn’t seem to matter how much you work for something, or how hard you pray for it. Some things in life are completely out of your control. It doesn’t seem fair, but that’s how it goes I guess.
I want to believe something good will come later, or something even better will happen instead of what I originally planned. Whether or not it will, I’m holding on to the hope that it will. What else can I do, really?
Earlier this week, a family friend of mine gave me a bracelet. He said he remembered my blog post from earlier this year where I said my word for the year was “patience,” and it reminded him of that. So he got it for me and gave it to me at run club last weekend.
I’ve worn it every day since. Some things happen at the exact right moment when you need them, and this was one of them.
Truthfully, I haven’t been very good at being patient this year – or ever really. It’s only April, so I still have time to figure it out. But maybe this will serve as a reminder that good things come with time. Whatever His reason is, now is not that time, and I need to stay patient until then.
Looking back, almost everything else in my life has eventually turned out the way I wanted it to – or even better than I ever thought possible. Why would this time be any different? It’s easier said than done, but I just need to be patient.
I’m looking forward to a long Easter weekend to unwind and regroup. Life keeps moving forward, and I will too. I hope everyone has a blessed, relaxing Easter with loved ones.
Until next time,
Megan Nelson